START NOW!

It's been awhile since I try to post my writing on blog again (oh 4 years for sure) because honestly writing is not my thing. But now, I get a big desire to improve my writing ability, especially in English. Well, I know my capability, I know my weakness on "English Language World", I know it would be embarassing if my blog readed by people who expert on English Language and find out my mistaken on writing. Totally  SHAMEFUL.

Start to writing is a hard stuff, moreover you have to write with English Language is the worst of it. Not mention of write in English Language, even just writing on my own language is so hard to do. I have to make a good topic, pick the right vocabulary, use a correct sentences, on and on and on.

Just thinking of this make me want to give up even I'am not starting yet. I've been learning about "English Language World" for many years. I got interest on "this world" since I was in Junior High School. I love the western songs, movies, even just the conversation, I do love it. I thought it's so cool if I can speaking in English Language fluently. Then I start to learn how to speaking in English Language. Almost 10 years has past, here I'am now, still wondering if I can be like what I've emagine for my entire life: have no problem with "English Language World", get high score on IELTS or TOELF test, convident when speaking or writing in English Language, can teach or guide my children with daily speaking English so they don't have to be like their mother struggling on "English Language World" for many years, and the last but not least is achieve my next goal and I hope I can make my perents proud.

I really want to be a great writer and expert on "English Language World", because I have a big dream for my future, I have my longterm plan. I really want to get higer achievement and I know it wouldn't be easy. It's a long journey ahead, that's why I need to START it NOW! Oh and I always remember the good words, it's said:

"All progress takes place outside the comfort zone" 

This words make me realize that no one can life my dream. It's me who want to be like what I've imagine of. So it's just me who can make it happen by the willing of Allah SWT. So that's why i need to work harder, to be patient with myself, to be more discipline, to always encourage myself to be better than yesterday, it's me to take actions and bear with that, so letter on I don't get any regrets. I know how it feels like when you're realize that you're already waste your time. Not just once, but almost in your youth, you don't try to give your best, and even the worst is, you didn't give any try.

So here I'm, decide to start writing in English Language to improve my ability (not skill, 'cause I don't have any skill yet). I don't want to give any expectation from this, because I'm just doing this alone. By the way, I'm not sure there's someone out there will read my blog, but if it happens, it will be great if you give me suggestion or tell me if there's something wrong on my writing (I believe 100% there must be something incorrect about my writing).

"Bismillahirrahmanirrahim"

"With the name of Allah SWT"

"With this first post of my blog (after 4 years) I declare to be brave to post my writings,

even I know I'm lack in many ways"